The person I am today is way different from who I was before and most people wouldn’t see the change unless they really knew me. I might seem like the same person filled with severe anger issues and a whole bunch of emotions but overtime I’ve gotten better. My depressed thoughts and anger started when I dated this guy a few years back. I thought that I had it pretty good, we got along, could joke around, and we were almost in a way, similar. At Least that was what I thought. He also had pretty bad anger issues and had a lot of stuff that happened in his life and he never seemed to let it go, it was almost like he wanted some kind of excuse for being upset. His sadness and other emotions started to rub off on me and I got so sick of it, that’s when we started fighting more and constantly disagreeing on things. Every little thing was a fight and my anger got so bad I would punch things almost breaking my knuckle. This was over a course of two years. I don’t know why I let it get so bad or let it go on for such a long period of time but I did, and I regret it. I don’t usually regret things this much but he had a very, very bad impact on my life. That’s a long two years that I will never be able to get back. Somehow I still get dragged into his stupid drama and it’s so irritating I just want him completely out of my life so I can move on with what I have now. When I started my job in July of 2018 that’s when things started to change. I started to meet new people, and I had more distractions, and he was gone. Even just that alone helped me a whole bunch with my emotions and a few people noticed the change and liked it. Then I met this guy months later and not even saying any words, just looking at him, I could tell that there was some kind of spark. Almost like a “Love at first sight” kind of thing. I know it sounds really cheesy but it’s pretty accurate going back to that. We both had that feeling and we both know the very first few words that were said to each other. We remember the beginning like it was yesterday. He was the start to a newer, happier, and more complete life. Yeah we have had our ups and our downs but who doesn’t? Nobody is perfect, and we get through it together. He helps a lot when it comes to stress and anxiety as well. Just knowing that he’s there, just hearing his voice is very soothing to me and he always manages to calm me down. Being with him has matured me and I’m the happiest I’ve ever been and I can’t wait for what the future has to offer me.